Forgiveness

"to err is human, to forgive is divine" - pope

i read this on the MRT on my way home from an afternoon of pool with 2 of my good buddies, Desmond and Ivan. but so many times in life, we would rather forget the whole issue than to go in depth about forgiveness and reconciliation. why? is it because the whole process of forgiveness and understanding the error and to accept the trespasses as it is, is a whole lot more painful and tiring then just forget it ever happen? yes, i believe so as i have ran away from it more often than none.

i am now officially 23 years old... i have never imagined that i could have lived so long, yet it is not without it's effects. i've seen great changes in me and also in my surrondings. people around me became either warmer or the opposite in just a matter of days, characters came and left without a trace, love arrived yet disappeared the moment i was fallen in it. God, how did i get into such a mess? if You are trying to punish me, why let it be emotional? can't You punish me more physically? yes, i'm a battered man for being through 9 surgeries are not without its perks and growth. sincerely, on this birthday i realised who has changed and who has not, who is faithful and who isn't. it does pain me to know the truth yet the truth i must uphold.

yet again, i thank you all who spent the few hours and effort to conjure the unforgettable birthday events that i had. thank you very much... there isn't much to say now, except that i am learning the flaws of being human and survival is critical at this moment.