a tad of sorrow, a scant of despair, added with a little agony beget the introduction of hate and desperate measures. do we all have the seed of evil inside us, waiting for the wrong moment and time to erupt into a full-flowing volcano? should i restrain myself to eternal anger just to prevent bloodshed from happening? why? am i supposed to think and act for the greater good when all that is occurring around me is convincing me that what a fool i am to think so.
people i've trusted, people i've loved, people i've pinned my hopes on all turned their backs or slapped me in the face when assistance was requested. if it's back-stabbing, at least kill me before i even know, right? i'm ashamed, to live in this world, at this time, at this very hour... when darkness reign supreme and all think that this is the period of info-technology, internet, science and bio-technology. doesn't anyone sees all these as distractions from the one true God? am i preaching? sorry if i am but don't get all religious with me, i'm as sinful as anyone in this present world. more sinful than you thought possible. if i have achieved anything during this life-time is that i've become an agent for evil and greatly efficient in my craft. disbelief? when the End comes, when all will be revealed, trust me... you'll be surprised with my deeds and crimes.
today, another unproductive day for me... Laziness is also one of the seven deadly sins for goodness sake. damn, if i'm ever going to Heaven (which i don't think so), i will wonder why... there are so much to do yet i'm delaying it and not even starting on anything that is so pressing. gosh, i'm good at deluding myself all these while. if you need to be lied to or talk out of anything, ask me. i can even make the dead think they are alive. one of traits i am so proud of... as if. be frank, i'm so sick i don't think there's cure yet i can repeatedly fabricate amazing stories to convince myself i'm well. should i be a lawyer? i think i should try... i'll be amazing! "Serial Killer gets Correction Work Order for 26 murders due to amazing lawyer" - headlines in tomorrow newspaper. history will applaud me, parents and children will damn me.
anyway, this is my first blog and guess you'll be bored now. another day perhaps.
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