Let it be...

My Personal, Irrational Blog To My Grandfather - Gabriel Nguan

Grandpa, what were you like when you were young, this i do not know. what do you like to do when you were in your teens this i have no clue. the only knowledge of your past are stories told by my father and grandmother. all i know about you is only after i was born, me a spawn of you in scientific terms. but yet, it was enough for me to know you love us all, your grandchildren to the very extent that you were willing to fight the very battle till you see us all.

"ah gong", do you remember that you always, always rub my legs for me when i came home battered with bruises and sprains? do you remember that when we were eating peanuts together, you always give me the "red" ones? do you remember me and Dorinda's favourite line when we were kids? "ah gong nue kag" (meaning - "grandpa, twenty cents") and i cannot forget the very magnifying glass you gave me... an identical one that you always use to read your newspaper. ah gong... i know you had to go... but i really didn't want you to go... i want to go catch crabs with you and my father... i want to see you cast nets for fishing... (daddy told me that ah gong is an accomplished fisherman) i still want to see you when i take bus 56 home from bishan. (ah gong was a bus driver for many many years) there are still so many things i don't wish to let go... ah gong, i'm selfish... i know... ah gong, you were always so quiet... even in death you were still so quiet... so quiet i didn't know you were gone until Uncle Peter told me... ah gong... i'm sorry... i wasn't the best of grandson... ah gong... there are so many things to say but it doesn't mean anything now.

ah gong... i know it's only a matter of time when we will meet again. we must be strong to carry on... living the reminder of our days in accordance to God's law if we want to see you again in Heaven. i look forward to you teaching me how to mend and cast nets, of course together with your son Anthony, my dad along. the 3 of us will go fishing everyday, catching crabs and prawns and pluck wild fruits together. maybe if the rest of the Nguans wishes to follow us, why not? we will have a family outing together in Heaven... haha, all this in my imagination right now...

ah gong, don't make yourself too comfortable upstairs hor... ah lu (which is me, Andrew = ah lu because ah gong cannot pronouce Andrew) is coming to irriatate you very soon. we will have peanuts and watch the news together... and you've have to rub my legs for me again once i've beaten the Angel Football Club every now and then. Soccer in heaven, hahaha... ah gong, rest well... we will meet again, this i assure you.

Your Grandson "Ah Lu"

The Beatles - Let It Be
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. Yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be